Well, here I am again…Up. Too awake to go to sleep and too tired to do anything. So…why not blog a little.
I’m curious, does anyone else have this problem? I mean, I know I’m not the only one or docs wouldn’t have all these meds that don’t work right? So far tonight I have taken 20mg of Melatonin and a nerve pill. Nothing. I’ve tried everything from Ambien to Benadryl. I even tried the infamous Z-Quil. That was a joke by the way! Warm milk, warm baths, lavender essential oils…You name it…I have tried it! My insomnia knows no bounds.
The thing that bothers me isn’t really the fact that I can’t sleep. Staying up until the wee hours of the morning is such a peaceful time. Everyone is safe in bed. So I’m not wondering where they are. Does everyone feel alright? Nobody has their feelings hurt? Is each person getting the attention they need? This quiet time to myself can be very freeing. Not to mention, I have the television to myself. I can actually watch a movie from beginning to end without interruption. That may not seem like much to you but let me tell you…it means a great deal to me.
My husband watches a movie all the way through and then leaves at the end. He misses it! How can you not watch the end of a movie? Oh it’s not just movies. I’m talking, sitcoms, reality, etc. So, if I’m watching a movie or one of my shows, I have so much anxiety when it starts winding down, because my husband has the unusual talent of coming in and messing up the end. EVERYTIME! It never fails. Direct T.V. has this ability to pause live shows and rewind them. Genius! I was so excited when that came out. I felt like they made it just for me! Bless him! He really is a sweetie. Just really bad timing.
Wow! I went down a rabbit trail. So it isn’t really the fact that I can’t sleep that bothers me the most. It’s the fact that when my period of not sleeping is over, I sleep for days. I’ve actually went days straight without going to bed…at all. Of course our bodies aren’t made to do that for very long. Eventually it will shut down to reboot itself. When my body does this, I sleep for days…only getting up to go to the restroom. You really can miss a lot of life when you’re sleeping through it. I believe that is what bothers me the most. I have missed some opportunities in my life because of days like those.
I suppose I’ve said all that to say this…if you suffer with this problem and you have found a solution that works for you, please let me know. I’ve tried everything the docs have to give. Even all the “aides” at Walmart or CVS. So surprise me!